I'll just pray hard and wait.

2009-03-03T00:14:00.002+08:00

....Going Away Temporarily....

2009-02-19T20:36:00.002+08:00

THE BLOODY PRESENTATION IS TOMORROW!!

DAMN! I FEEL BUTTERFLIES IN ME.
DUH...

2009-02-07T14:50:00.007+08:00

Hola Tericollas! It's been so long since I've posted something in this blog. Well what can I do when life starts to get more exciting and anticipating. Calculation has it that my last post was approximately 1 month before. Yeap and so 1 month later I've decided to well...write a post again. Here it goes...=)

School is ending soon...and that marks graduation! Yay! Finally, I'm gonna bid farewell to ITE and welome Poly. Its been a ride for the past 2 yrs since I attended ITE and hell yeah it brings so much memories during my times in there. In fact, almost every single minute turns out to be wonderful moments. Those friends I've made changes my life in so many ways. 'Priceless' is the perfect word to describe them because they are my sunshine. Everyday, we never fail to laugh at each others jokes and attitudes even those lame ones. It's so sad when everyone are gonna go seperate ways. Some will be serving NS and some will continue studying. Well I am really gonna miss everyone comes graduation.

Anyway, project presentation is nearing and I could feel those butterflies appearing bit by bit in my stomach. Who doesnt man when you have to do a presentation in front of the lecturers and especially the section head. My group was really fortunate to be able to finish the product early thus we are left with only the report and powerpoint. So yeah hope it goes well on presentation day.

Whats the most exciting is I'm in the process of getting a bike licence! Woohoo! Soon baby! And then comes the problem. I'm near to bankruptcy and I need a job! Damnit! Wahhaa...

Alrite I got something to show. I'ts written by a long lost friend of mine whom we've never met since primary school. Her name is Zatie and she's ermm...what we called each other, 'Fren Forever". Hah! Anyway I find it so sweet of her to really take the initiative and go the extra mile to create this poem. =)

Farrell is a friend
Whom I called 'fren'
He calls me the same
Instead of my name

No idea whatsoever
When I first saw his picture
Haven't met for ages
Guess its been 7 years

Long lost fren I've found
Won't be lost this time round
Coz most days' I'd say
Fren is just a click away

Though fren is lame
He's not to blame
Coz it's always like this
I'm lamer than he is

Fren makes me look crazy
As I laugh unnecessarily
At 2,3 in the morning
About the stuff he's crapping

So chase the clouds away
Never let it stay
One thing I've gotta say
Ur rainbow will emerge one day

Lastly,thank you dear fren
For all this while
U've made me smile
U're always a life-saver
And not forgetting,
MY FREN FOREVER!!!

by: Zatie

Hows that! Adios amigo! =)

2009-01-01T23:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Everyone, lets bid farewell to 2008 and welcome 2009! May the world be filled with health, love, joy, happiness and laughter! Peace baby!

2008-12-13T14:28:00.012+08:00

Si Mi Kong Strak! Its been long since i entered this site. So yeah nothing interesting to blog about. Just some happenings which had taken place over the course of time. School has been great for the past few weeks. A bit rocky sometimes, but all in all, im glad that i've managed to go thru the days smoothly and pretty much enjoyable. And like finally, its holiday time! Yeah! Yeah! Time do travel faster than i expected. Soon, im gonna graduate from this institution and those friends, im gonna miss them so much.

Here's are some pictures of my time in ITE;

Anyway, yesterday 2 fools really made a fool out of themselves. Haha. Me and Nasri planned to head down to Woodland Checkpoint(dorang panggil marsiling/woodland lame). So we decided to board a bus from Sungei Kadut rather than taking the MRT. Basically, theres 2 buses that can bring us to our destination. 170 & 160. So we waited for around 10 mins until a 170 bus appeared. This is what happened;

Nas: Rell tahan bas...

Me & Nas: (looking at the bus directory while the bus just drove past us)

Me: Sial ah Nas bas tk stop. Kiwak tunggu punye lame.

Nas: Kau ah tk tahan. Sial ah Rell kene tunggu lagi.

Rell: Pantatlah asal everytime aku yg kene tahan?? Kiwak kene tunggu lagi...

Me & Nas: (muke stoned)

30-45 mis later, a 160 bus appeared...

Me: Lincah Nas tahan!!

Nas: (flagging the bus like he never seen one before.haha)

Finally, we boarded a bus. During the journey, out of nowhere we talked about Mat Johor and Nas critisized them. Huahua. At Kranji, the bus started getting crowded and I had some bad feelings about it. Just 1 more stop and we would have reach our destination but suddenly, the bus turned towards the road heading for the Immigration Centre. Everybody alighted including us..

Me: Nas mampos kite masok Johor. Kau ah gi ckp Mat Johor buatpe.

Nas: Sial ah aku tknk gi Johor aku nk gi Woodland. Sial ah Rell mane nk jln.(muke col)

We then walk backwards and saw 2 policeman heading towards us..

Policeman: Korang nk pegi mane ni?

Me & Nas: Bang kite nk gi Woodland. Boleh jalan blakang. Kite salah naek bas ah.

Policeman: Ouh. Tk bleh jalan sini. Kene masok immigration centre.

Me & Nas: Tapi bang kite dari Singapore. Kite tknk masok Johor.

Policeman: Taulah. Tapi tkleh jalan sini. Tkpe blaja la kan.

Nas: Tapi kite dari Singapore(We kept repeating this word everywhere we go.haha)

Inside the I&C office..

Officer: Ade bwk rokok tk?

Me: Tkde

Nas: Ade

Officer: Rokok malaysia,singapore? Ade rokok malaysia tk?

Nas: Singapore. Tkde kite dari Singapore...

At the scanning machine since im carrying a bag..

Officer: Boy dalam ade ape2 tk?

Me: Tkde ah. Saya dari Singapore..

Finding the right route to get out from that place...

Me: Cik tumpang tanye boleh? Mane nk kluar dari tempat ni?

Makcik: Ouh awak naek lift tu je ikot org2 tu sume.

Nas: Tapi kite dari Singapore..

Me: Hahah. Ok terima kasih cik.

In summary, we just made a fool of ourselves even though we knew we're still in Singapore. Haha. So looking forward to the holidays!!

2008-11-28T20:04:00.006+08:00

.November Rain.

Happy Birthday!! Well its the month of November and coincidentally, two birthdays falls on this month. The little girl on top is none other than my sister, Nurin Syahirah. She's the 2nd youngest and its her 8th birthday. Even though she never fail to get on my nerves almost everyday, she's still my sister afterall. So Happy Birthday to you sister! Grr!

As for the guy, he's name is Muhammad Nasri. He became a close friend of mine eversince i attended ITE. Well, the fact is, we already know each other eversince we were in kindergarten. He used to be a classmate of mine and i used to throw toys at him back then. Haha. And 11 years later, we're classmates again. What a small world indeed. Anyway, after much waiting, he's gonna turn 18 finally(boboi gonna turn 18 kape?huahua). So Happy Birthday to you Nasri! May u enjoy life to the fullest with your loved ones! Da tkya suruh aku belikan storm..

Alright im down with this damn high fever and I guess its because of my excessive thinking(fikiran tk abes2). I used to call someone 'Muke Penyakit' and now its my turn. Oh well...I'll just continue praying then..

2008-11-27T21:19:00.004+08:00

Lets just say "Forget It..."

This life is just an empty space

2008-11-17T22:18:00.003+08:00

Been feeling eeerr.....damn i cant even describe how im feeling right now. I don't know why but my heart just kept pumping faster and faster every single day. And this brain of mine just cant stop thinking. Lots and lots of thinking. Obviously, negative ones. If only i could cut open my heart and let you hold it, maybe then you'll see whats always been on my mind. Seems like everyday, im positioned in a no man's land with this overload brain of mine. At anytime, any second or any moment, it can just "poof" and explode. Like a time bomb. And this heart, will always be in the hands of a juggling clown.

Im not even sure of what im talking about right now. But one things for sure is im still waiting for everything to fall back together in one piece. Waiting for you to talk to me. Waiting for my prayers to be answered. Waiting for this heart and mind to be functioning back as per normal. Easier said, waiting for my rainbow to appear. That rainbow is definitely you cos nothing mean so much to me then YOU...

2008-11-15T12:13:00.008+08:00

The world is indeed in turmoil. Wouldnt it be great if every human beings stop holding grudges? Stop hating each other? Stop thinking for themselves? And just stop all this nonsense? Cant everyone hold their hands together and smile instead? Show the love for each other? Care for each other? And together, hold the world in one perfect piece? Theres always something in the way. If only every human beings could just change for the better, the world would surely be a wonderful place to be. Yeah random. Duhh...

2008-11-11T22:00:00.013+08:00

I just wanna dedicate this song to my one and only Nursyahirah...

Jangan Diucap Selamat Tinggal

Ku mencari, ku mencari
Apakah salahku
Kau buat ku termenung seorangan
Dalam diri sangsi, akhirnya begini
Perpisahan tak ku duga

Ku mengerti, ku fahami
Keputusan diri
Biar saja aku sebegini
Permintaan terakhirku, jangan kau lafazkan
Simpan saja kata-kata

(chorus)
Jangan diucap selamat tinggal
Jangan kau ucap selamat tinggal
Jangan diucap selamat tinggal
Kepadaku

Walaupun seketika, walaupun sekelip mata
Simpan saja kata-kata, ke akhir hayat yang ada
Walaupun seketika, walaupun sekelip mata
Simpan saja kata-kata, ke akhir hayat yang ada

(My dear Nursyahirah, no matter what happens, i will always hold you in my heart till the end of time. I will always love you sayang.)

2008-11-11T20:46:00.007+08:00

.Pending.

(Ok thats not my hand. haha)

Oh well i didnt attend school today. Studying seems to me not a priority anymore. Alrite thats a lie. Haha. Studying is pretty much my priority anyway. Eversince i attended ITE, it really changes my life and perception of studying. So yeah anyway i didnt attend school today due to my NS Enlistment Medical Checkup. Headed down to CMPB so very damn early at around 7 plus with 2 other friends. The appointment was supposed to be at 1030am but we decided to be there at 0830am. Well we are just so excited to take the blood test. Haha thats a lie again (padehal satu-satu muke da "col"). Yeah and before that we ate at Mcdonalds when by right we shouldnt be consuming foods before the checkup (satu-satu perangai).

A few hours later at 1pm, we're finished with the appointment (Amcm abg-abg enlistment? =D). But too bad me and another friend, Nasri had to be called up again for another appointment because they just love taking our blood (hah mcm paham). Yeah after that we headed home. Burr..

2008-11-09T10:31:00.008+08:00

Yaw yaw yaw! Wth. Anyway this week has been so dull. Again. Schools as usual except for some great happenings which appeared & disappeared in a matter of a blink. Lol. Had been quite busy doing tutorials nowadays. Well just wanna work extra hard since its the last term of my life in ITE. Cool or what? Hmm nah i think im gonna miss ITE so much instead. Ouh yeap. My NS checkup is coming soon. And damn just having the thoughts of LONG, GIGANTIC needles made me shiver. They're gonna take away my blood. And Im gonna miss my blood. Wth. So, nothing much to blog actually. Thats it.

Sampaikan salam buat semua

Salam terakhir salam teristimewa

Kepada kau yang tersayang

Pada teman yang ku kenang

Pemergian ku ini tak dirancang

Usah bertanya mengapa aku

Mengucap salam terakhir kepada mu

Kerna waktu berputaran

Bimbang tak berkesempatan

Melahirkan kerinduan terhadapmu

Demi sebuah kenyataan

Yang amat menyakitkan

Aku yang tidak berdaya

Hanya berserah padaNya

Salam akhir

Salam yang teristimewa

KepadaNya ku memohon keampunan

MelaluiNya ku beri kemaafan

Kepadamu

Andainya aku punya waktu

Masih ku ingin mengulangi semula

Saat indah bersama mu

Sayang tak berkesempatan

Abadikan saja salam ku di ingatan

Salam ku yang terakhir

Seems like I just cant keep my words. Farrell ouh Farrell.

2008-10-31T21:19:00.004+08:00

WEEKEND BABY!!! Duh..
But sometimes i just got this feeling, "Damn, its weekend. Rotttttt. -_-". Hah. Wth. Anyway yeah nothing much for today.

Just a summary of what happened:

0700: Just got out of house and headed to school.

0745: Reached Dover MRT station.

0800: Reached Dover ITE bus stop. Mindset suddenly changed, so never attended 8am lesson.

0930: Entered school. Went for a break. (lesson tk dtg nk gi break. pfft)

1000: Entered classroom for EMD practical lesson. Lecturer called out my name to "lecture" me. Said my attendance has improved. (padehal attendance 59% out of 100%. damn). JUN'ALI'(noreen punye syg. sry noreen. hahaha) entered the class and damn he's so weird. HAHA! Masyaallah tk baek ketawekan org.

1230: School ended. Straight away headed to mosque. Something happened. Some assholes ransacked our belongings during prayers. (diorang check bag duit aku tkde duit tros ltak balek. hah.)

1400: Went back home. Walked here and there like a fool. Like always, strum the guitar.

1500: Sleep

1600: Still Sleeping...

1700: Still Sleeping...

1800: Woke up. First thing, strum the guitar.

1900: From here onwards, i dont know what im doing either. Pfft..

Yeah thats today. Life seems to get more boring than ever... =)

2008-10-30T20:12:00.005+08:00

.Waiting For You - Scandal.

I just wish we never met..

But no one knows that our love will turn out so bad..

I'm still hanging on..

With this love..

That turned out so wrong..

I'm still dreaming of you..

Hoping you come back..

But it's just a dream..

Will it ever come true..

And I'm still waiting..

Waiting for you..

And for you to return by my side..

And you know it's hurting..

When love is untrue..

When I know that our love ain't alive..

And I still be waiting baby..

Wishing you would hear my cry..

Give me one last chance to hear your voice tonight..

The last time I saw you..

The way you look in my eyes..

You told me to forget you..

And you left without saying goodbye..

I'm still dreaming of you..

Hoping you come back..

But it's just a dream..

Will it ever come true?

And I still be waiting..

Waiting for you..

And for you to return by my side..

And you know it's hurting.
When love is untrue..

When I know that our love ain't alive..

And I still be waiting baby..

Wishing you would hear my cry..

Give me one last chance to hear your voice tonight..

We can end right now and say goodbye..

But I guess baby..I'll still be waiting..

2008-10-30T00:16:00.005+08:00

.Those times.
Those memories just kept playing in my mind everyday. Remembering the times we had together. They're just so sweet. Sweeter then any candy I've ever had. I really miss those times.

I still remembered back then when i asked for your phone number.Thinking to myself, how am i gonna get this girl's number. I could still remember the conversations i had with u at that time. Asking for a pager number rather than a phone number. How funny it was. So i tried my luck n u gave me. I swear that i was jumping so happily later on. Without hesitation, i text u. The first name i called u is well "pendek". But later on i called u SYASYA. Thats just how i like to call u even till now. Yeah i still remembered...

One day while browsing thru your friendster account, i came across this, "Sa Rang Hae Yo". Yeap thats the first korean word i learnt from u. It spelled out "I LOVE YOU". I started saying that to you and you replied back the same to me. At that point, I was so over the moon. I was really in love with a girl name Nursyahirah. No words could really describe the feelings i had for you even though we've never met face to face. Not even once.

It took less than a month for me to have a conversation with u on the phone. I still remembered u asked for it. The first time i heard your voice, it was so soft and sweet, like a voice from heaven. I was so happy smiling alone like i was high on drugs. Too bad it had to be shorten due to my flat battery. Yeah i still remembered...

Then we had our first meet ups. I remembered it was on Friday right after i get back from school.Waiting for u while having those butterflies in the stomach. I was so nervous at first. Then u appeared. The first time i saw u, that sweet smile of yours just make my mind go "Shes the one I've been looking for."And i still remembered saying to u "Pendeknye..??" while walking beside each other. Well sorry about that. U were so mysterious back then, always giving me those arrogant but cute looks. However, i just felt so happy and somehow comfortable to be with u since that day. From then onwards, I've always yearn to see u.

Never have i wanted anything bad to happen between our relationship. But like they said, every relationships has its ups and downs. There was some misunderstanding between u and me. Yeah at that time it was supposed to be our meet ups again. But well the plan didn't go accordingly. U were so disappointed and sad that i felt so bad. That was the first time i felt so down. I still remembered those words "I just cant bear the thoughts of losing you. I let u do the planning in future". Seriously, i just cant bear to make another mistake.

The first time u hug and kiss me, it felt so warmth. To have this feeling that someone love u was always pleasant. Never had i once had someone that love me this much. I was the luckiest guy back then i think. I really missed those times so much. I could still remember the day u cried in front of me. Well lets just say we cried together for some reasons. Thinking about it as I'm typing, i just cant stop the tears from flowing. It so wonderful back then. Sigh. Be it our happy or sad moments, i really cherish them well. Especially with a wonderful girl like you.

Well the further i type, the faster my heart beats. It really pains me and i felt so regret to hurt u in such a way. My dear Syahirah, everyone is different in their own ways. I know your past back then was horrible but hey give yourself a chance and try me. You'll never know if u never give yourself a chance. I'm willing to be there for you forever and when i said forever, it means sticking with you for every moment be it the sad or happy ones. I'll will always be there. That's my life vow cos i really love you.

Everyday when i woke up from my sleep, its just really really hard for me to pick myself up knowing that you're no longer there by my side. Everytime without fail, i hope for your name to appear again on my phone like old times. I really miss those times. Even those sarcastic, sad or those msges when we argue with each other. Really hurts me alot to know I've lost you. For the time being, I'll just pray hard and wait. But I just cant hold back the tears really...

=(((

2008-10-29T00:33:00.006+08:00

.Never tired of waiting.
Everyday it seems, i kept waiting. Waiting for her name to appear. Be it on the phone or the messenger. But to no avail. Everytime it happens, many thoughts came in. So I told myself, "Its alright, theres still tomorrow". But even as i said that to myself, the heart just felt like exploding. Still, I continue waiting.

ITS KILLING ME BIT BY BIT. I MISS U SO MUCH GIRL.
=(

2008-10-27T18:26:00.007+08:00

.Oh Well.

Today = ROT

Anyway school will resume tomorrow. Worst of all, class starts at 8am. Pfft.. But the good thing, school ends at 11pm. So yeah lets just see what happen tomorrow.

Just wondering how am i gonna wake up so early. Damn i miss those times. How i wish shes still there to give me those wake up calls..

Btw, thank you so much for last friday. Really appreciate it.

2008-10-26T00:44:00.006+08:00

.Like finally, everything starts to make sense.

Yeah i know i can do it!

I've successfully "repaired" this blog of mine all by myself.

U feel me?! U feel me?!

Haha..

2008-10-21T13:25:00.007+08:00

.I'll just pray hard & wait.

I've never ever blamed her for what happened. I was aware of all the mistakes that i made and it was never her fault.Sometimes i just feel sorry for her after what shes gone thru in the past even though i didn't really know much about it. No matter how she treats me,i still love her and i do. Everything about her is beautiful. The first time i hug her,i realised that shes the only one i love. I didn't want to lose her,not even thoughts of her and i wish to be in that position forever. But i realised that some things that we yearn for may never happen.

Every time when i pray,i'll always pray for her safety,her happiness and everything that is best for her. I just want her to be happy.

When we love someone,we will wait for them no matter how long it takes and we accept them for what they are. I had to admit that since the day i last saw her,i was weak all over. Everyday thoughts of her would appear in my mind and everyday i couldn't sleep just thinking about her. I tried to raise my chin up but i failed. I'm just glad that she's happy with her situation right now. Sometimes when i saw her on msn,my heart just sank. I really wanna have a conversation with her like old times but i just couldn't resist the thoughts that i'm just a nobody to her now.

All this while,i've been trying very hard to cheer up but i couldn't because something is always missing from my heart. Sometimes i would sit alone n recall those moments i had with her. Furthermore, passing by those places that i've been with her. Those memories always bring down tears. Only god knows whats been running thru my mind.

My frens often talk and share with me about their gfs which was pleasant to hear but at the same time i felt so jealous. How i wish she was beside me.

She's just so special that no other person could replace her. Some frens of mine told me to forget about her because theres still other girls out there that are better. But to me its not what she meant to the world. Its what she meant to me. Shes like the best thing i've ever had. Its indescribable. I really don't have the intentions to find another girl except her.

It was like a dream come true back then. Just having her by my side is enough for me to go thru the days. She never fail to make me smile even with just a msg. In the end,i just realised that some things wont go your way. Well if shes happy,then i'll be glad to share that happiness for her. But deep inside,i just hope that one day she would return. Really hope.

..Syahirah ouh Syahirah..

2008-10-20T00:32:00.002+08:00

.Out Of Boredom.

Well I've just built one

Believe it or not

Trying to kill time I guess

Rather than rotting all day long