Bright Side Ahead Baby!

Friday, October 31, 2008

WEEKEND BABY!!! Duh..
But sometimes i just got this feeling, "Damn, its weekend. Rotttttt. -_-". Hah. Wth. Anyway yeah nothing much for today.

Just a summary of what happened:

0700: Just got out of house and headed to school.

0745: Reached Dover MRT station.

0800: Reached Dover ITE bus stop. Mindset suddenly changed, so never attended 8am lesson.

0930: Entered school. Went for a break. (lesson tk dtg nk gi break. pfft)

1000: Entered classroom for EMD practical lesson. Lecturer called out my name to "lecture" me. Said my attendance has improved. (padehal attendance 59% out of 100%. damn). JUN'ALI'(noreen punye syg. sry noreen. hahaha) entered the class and damn he's so weird. HAHA! Masyaallah tk baek ketawekan org.

1230: School ended. Straight away headed to mosque. Something happened. Some assholes ransacked our belongings during prayers. (diorang check bag duit aku tkde duit tros ltak balek. hah.)

1400: Went back home. Walked here and there like a fool. Like always, strum the guitar.

1500: Sleep

1600: Still Sleeping...

1700: Still Sleeping...

1800: Woke up. First thing, strum the guitar.

1900: From here onwards, i dont know what im doing either. Pfft..

Yeah thats today. Life seems to get more boring than ever... =)

Thursday, October 30, 2008

.Waiting For You - Scandal.

I just wish we never met..

But no one knows that our love will turn out so bad..

I'm still hanging on..

With this love..

That turned out so wrong..

I'm still dreaming of you..

Hoping you come back..

But it's just a dream..

Will it ever come true..

And I'm still waiting..

Waiting for you..

And for you to return by my side..

And you know it's hurting..

When love is untrue..

When I know that our love ain't alive..

And I still be waiting baby..

Wishing you would hear my cry..

Give me one last chance to hear your voice tonight..

The last time I saw you..

The way you look in my eyes..

You told me to forget you..

And you left without saying goodbye..

I'm still dreaming of you..

Hoping you come back..

But it's just a dream..

Will it ever come true?

And I still be waiting..

Waiting for you..

And for you to return by my side..

And you know it's hurting.
When love is untrue..

When I know that our love ain't alive..

And I still be waiting baby..

Wishing you would hear my cry..

Give me one last chance to hear your voice tonight..

We can end right now and say goodbye..

But I guess baby..I'll still be waiting..

.Those times.
Those memories just kept playing in my mind everyday. Remembering the times we had together. They're just so sweet. Sweeter then any candy I've ever had. I really miss those times.

I still remembered back then when i asked for your phone number.Thinking to myself, how am i gonna get this girl's number. I could still remember the conversations i had with u at that time. Asking for a pager number rather than a phone number. How funny it was. So i tried my luck n u gave me. I swear that i was jumping so happily later on. Without hesitation, i text u. The first name i called u is well "pendek". But later on i called u SYASYA. Thats just how i like to call u even till now. Yeah i still remembered...

One day while browsing thru your friendster account, i came across this, "Sa Rang Hae Yo". Yeap thats the first korean word i learnt from u. It spelled out "I LOVE YOU". I started saying that to you and you replied back the same to me. At that point, I was so over the moon. I was really in love with a girl name Nursyahirah. No words could really describe the feelings i had for you even though we've never met face to face. Not even once.

It took less than a month for me to have a conversation with u on the phone. I still remembered u asked for it. The first time i heard your voice, it was so soft and sweet, like a voice from heaven. I was so happy smiling alone like i was high on drugs. Too bad it had to be shorten due to my flat battery. Yeah i still remembered...

Then we had our first meet ups. I remembered it was on Friday right after i get back from school.Waiting for u while having those butterflies in the stomach. I was so nervous at first. Then u appeared. The first time i saw u, that sweet smile of yours just make my mind go "Shes the one I've been looking for."And i still remembered saying to u "Pendeknye..??" while walking beside each other. Well sorry about that. U were so mysterious back then, always giving me those arrogant but cute looks. However, i just felt so happy and somehow comfortable to be with u since that day. From then onwards, I've always yearn to see u.

Never have i wanted anything bad to happen between our relationship. But like they said, every relationships has its ups and downs. There was some misunderstanding between u and me. Yeah at that time it was supposed to be our meet ups again. But well the plan didn't go accordingly. U were so disappointed and sad that i felt so bad. That was the first time i felt so down. I still remembered those words "I just cant bear the thoughts of losing you. I let u do the planning in future". Seriously, i just cant bear to make another mistake.

The first time u hug and kiss me, it felt so warmth. To have this feeling that someone love u was always pleasant. Never had i once had someone that love me this much. I was the luckiest guy back then i think. I really missed those times so much. I could still remember the day u cried in front of me. Well lets just say we cried together for some reasons. Thinking about it as I'm typing, i just cant stop the tears from flowing. It so wonderful back then. Sigh. Be it our happy or sad moments, i really cherish them well. Especially with a wonderful girl like you.

Well the further i type, the faster my heart beats. It really pains me and i felt so regret to hurt u in such a way. My dear Syahirah, everyone is different in their own ways. I know your past back then was horrible but hey give yourself a chance and try me. You'll never know if u never give yourself a chance. I'm willing to be there for you forever and when i said forever, it means sticking with you for every moment be it the sad or happy ones. I'll will always be there. That's my life vow cos i really love you.

Everyday when i woke up from my sleep, its just really really hard for me to pick myself up knowing that you're no longer there by my side. Everytime without fail, i hope for your name to appear again on my phone like old times. I really miss those times. Even those sarcastic, sad or those msges when we argue with each other. Really hurts me alot to know I've lost you. For the time being, I'll just pray hard and wait. But I just cant hold back the tears really...

=(((

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

.Never tired of waiting.
Everyday it seems, i kept waiting. Waiting for her name to appear. Be it on the phone or the messenger. But to no avail. Everytime it happens, many thoughts came in. So I told myself, "Its alright, theres still tomorrow". But even as i said that to myself, the heart just felt like exploding. Still, I continue waiting.

ITS KILLING ME BIT BY BIT. I MISS U SO MUCH GIRL.
=(

Monday, October 27, 2008

.Oh Well.

Today = ROT

Anyway school will resume tomorrow. Worst of all, class starts at 8am. Pfft.. But the good thing, school ends at 11pm. So yeah lets just see what happen tomorrow.

Just wondering how am i gonna wake up so early. Damn i miss those times. How i wish shes still there to give me those wake up calls..

Btw, thank you so much for last friday. Really appreciate it.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

.Like finally, everything starts to make sense.

Yeah i know i can do it!

I've successfully "repaired" this blog of mine all by myself.

U feel me?! U feel me?!

Haha..

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

.I'll just pray hard & wait.

I've never ever blamed her for what happened. I was aware of all the mistakes that i made and it was never her fault.Sometimes i just feel sorry for her after what shes gone thru in the past even though i didn't really know much about it. No matter how she treats me,i still love her and i do. Everything about her is beautiful. The first time i hug her,i realised that shes the only one i love. I didn't want to lose her,not even thoughts of her and i wish to be in that position forever. But i realised that some things that we yearn for may never happen.

Every time when i pray,i'll always pray for her safety,her happiness and everything that is best for her. I just want her to be happy.

When we love someone,we will wait for them no matter how long it takes and we accept them for what they are. I had to admit that since the day i last saw her,i was weak all over. Everyday thoughts of her would appear in my mind and everyday i couldn't sleep just thinking about her. I tried to raise my chin up but i failed. I'm just glad that she's happy with her situation right now. Sometimes when i saw her on msn,my heart just sank. I really wanna have a conversation with her like old times but i just couldn't resist the thoughts that i'm just a nobody to her now.

All this while,i've been trying very hard to cheer up but i couldn't because something is always missing from my heart. Sometimes i would sit alone n recall those moments i had with her. Furthermore, passing by those places that i've been with her. Those memories always bring down tears. Only god knows whats been running thru my mind.

My frens often talk and share with me about their gfs which was pleasant to hear but at the same time i felt so jealous. How i wish she was beside me.

She's just so special that no other person could replace her. Some frens of mine told me to forget about her because theres still other girls out there that are better. But to me its not what she meant to the world. Its what she meant to me. Shes like the best thing i've ever had. Its indescribable. I really don't have the intentions to find another girl except her.

It was like a dream come true back then. Just having her by my side is enough for me to go thru the days. She never fail to make me smile even with just a msg. In the end,i just realised that some things wont go your way. Well if shes happy,then i'll be glad to share that happiness for her. But deep inside,i just hope that one day she would return. Really hope.

..Syahirah ouh Syahirah..

Monday, October 20, 2008

.Out Of Boredom.

Well I've just built one

Believe it or not

Trying to kill time I guess

Rather than rotting all day long